Loneliness is truth.

After breaking up with my girlfriend I have had a week of mostly hanging out with friends. And the only thing that I have realized is that the lack of emotion surging over me right now is not easily disrupted. What we do defines us and how can I then find my own identity among other people really? Other people are good in that they give some kind of reality check, but at the same time they are reality-checking with you. in a couple of days i have passed through three phases, first it has been just being, lying in the sun, listening to music, enjoying good food etc. After that I spent a lot of time being with other people, socializing and redefining myself in relation to other people. Now I think that I am being with myself. I have this strong urge to create and do stuff. ( I think that me writing in this blog right now has a lot to do with that). I am also planning to grow crops.